That feeling again...

Well, its one of those days. One of those days when I'm even more homesick for China than usual. I miss the smells, the sounds, the feel of the air, the commotion of the busy streets, the feeling in my heart that feels at home and feels at peace.

I don't know exactly what makes me long for these things on some days more than others. It's a funny thing when God calls you to do something. In your head you kinda think its crazy and it really doesnt make any sense at all but in your heart you KNOW its right! It feels good and perfect.

China is all I can imagine doing with my life. I can honestly say that this is what I feel I was made for. It's a passion and fire that burns so deep with in me that certain days I feel like I might explode because of it.

It might sound crazy that I know this number but it has been 375 days since I came home from China. I can say without a doubt that there hasn't been one day since then that I haven't thought about China or thought about getting back there. I dont know how many days it will be till God takes me back... it might be 42 (I'm praying for this date!) or it might be another 375. I just know that support raising has been one of the most faith stretching experiences for me. God has brought me this far I know He will complete His work. But on days like this when I feel especially homesick for China I feel like I'm stuck behind a glass wall... so close yet so far away. I have to remember that He is in control He is in the process of taking me back... it's all in His timing!

Thanks for praying!

Thanks for praying friends! Little Andersen is doing a lot better. Each day is an improvement. http://andersenzechariah.blogspot.com/

Please Pray

Friends, please pray for my sweet little nephew. Andersen was born last night (dec. 8th) he has been experiencing some difficulties and was transfered to Peoria (about an hour from us) they have a good childrens hospital that was more prepared to deal with his needs. Here is his blog address with more info http://andersenzechariah.blogspot.com/

Thank you!

Alyssa

One Time = 100%!!!

It's been a while since my last post. Things are going well. Little by little the Lord is providing and bringing my support in. I am currently at 35% of my monthly need and tonight I reached 100% of my one time need. God is so faithful! What a blessing. I am still praying that I will be able to leave in January of 2009 so that leaves 65% of my total monthly support still needed. In my eyes it seems like an impossibility but I know in God's eyes He has it all figured out. Would you please pray about how God might want to use you to make a difference in the lives of orphans?

In HIS love,
Alyssa

Gladys Aylward

This week had many challenges. I found myself discouraged wondering what God was up to, wondering where HE was in the midst of my confusion. This week God showed me that HE is always here. He never leaves me and never forsakes me no matter what is going on around me.

This week I found out that one of my applications for missionary support was rejected, One of the reasons being that I wasn't qualified enough.

A friend reminded me that Gladys Aylward was rejected. The China Inland Mission told her that she was unqualiefied and refused to support her financially.

Gladys didnt get the financial support that she was counting on but God still provided and took her to China and I feel confident the same will prevail in my journey; even though the support I thought I might get isnt going to come through I know God will. He will not leave me hanging He will stay right by my side paving the way.

I found a couple quotes by Gladys that encouraged my heart and I wanted to share them with you...

"I wasn't God's first choice for what I've done for China…I don't know who it was…It must have been a man…a well-educated man. I don't know what happened. Perhaps he died. Perhaps he wasn't willing…and God looked down…and saw Gladys Aylward…And God said - "Well, she's willing."

“If God has called you to China or any other place and you are sure in your own heart, let nothing deter you….Remember, it is God who has called you and it is the same as when He called Moses or Samuel.”

"My heart is full of praise that one so insignificant, uneducated, and ordinary in every way could be used to His glory for the blessing of His people in poor persecuted China."

God has called me to CHINA and if this is HIS will I know I will GO. Nothing can stand in the way of HIS plans. What a joy and excitement to be on this great adventure with HIM.

Much Love, Alyssa

P.S. Update on my China girl. I got in contact with the CCAI this week and they basically told me that it was a pretty hopeless situation. It is very diffucult to locate and request a specific child. Initially I was frustrated by the news but I know that God is still in control. That news doesn't change anything. He is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Please continue to pray with me that HE will work a miracle and bring her home to a family that loves her.

I will not leave you as orphans

You know God is funny. He does things that we will never understand and just when we think something is hopeless or impossible He reveals Himself in new and amazing ways.

10 days into my study abroad last year God impressed it upon my heart to pray for 1 little orphan girl to love on during my time in China. I prayed for this little girl for several weeks while I was waiting to volunteer at an orphanage. It seemed like all the doors where closing and I wasn’t going to be able to volunteer. Just when I thought there was no hope and I was about to give up God made a way. When I finally arrived at the orphanage I laid eyes on the tiniest little girl I had ever seen. It was love at first sight. She was beautiful and I knew within minutes of looking at her that she was the angel I had been praying for the past several weeks. As the weeks went on and I saw her time after time, the love in my heart for her grew stronger and stronger. I was hooked! I was committed to finding a momma for Xin Yue. I came home from China and my mission to find her a family continued. I thought of her everyday. I prayed for her all the time. I met her in my dreams quit often. Well the days turned into months and there was still no one that wanted her. So in my frustration I quietly gave up. I told myself it was hopeless and the best I could do was pray she would still be there in 7 years when I’m old enough to adopt and maybe just maybe she could be my little girl. Well, like I said above just when something seems hopeless God reveals Himself in amazing ways…
Over the course of the past weeks He has brought me into contact with someone else that feels the same heart connect with Xin Yue that I do. Someone that I believe is supposed to be her momma, that same momma that I started praying for 13 months ago. Only God can orchestrate something this wonderful!

Now the catch! I need you prayer warriors to be hard core right now… we need to find her paper work! I have contacted the CCAI to see if we can locate Xin Yue’s paper work. I called today and left a message. I am praying that I will receive a phone call back from them on Monday so that the search can begin. This is urgent friends because without her paperwork she can’t be adopted! Would you please join me in praying?

I will keep you updated as I hear more. Thank you so much for bringing this little angel and her situation before the throne of our Father.

Much love,
Alyssa

"I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you."
John 14:18

Thank You, Thank You, Thank You!!!

Friends, I can't thank you enough for the financial and prayer support that has come in over the past week. It has absolutely blown me away. Thank you for allowing God to use you. I feel so blessed to have all of you on my support team. There is still a huge need before I will be ready to go so let's keep praying together to see how God will continue to provide.

In Him, Alyssa

Greater Worth Than Gold

In all honesty I must admit that the last week has been hard. My incoming support both prayer and financial has slowed down tremendously. I have allowed myself to get discouraged and down and I have even began to second guess that I will be ready to go in January. I am ashamed to say this, ashamed that I would even question what God is doing. He is FAITHFUL! Even though it may seem slow now He is in control and I TRUST that I will go in HIS perfect time.

Yesterday I was reading my Bible and I came across 1 Peter 1:6-8

In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy

God has a plan for the pain and suffering I feel waiting to return to China but in the past few days I have realized that I don't want to waste this precious time of waiting. God doesn't waste anything!

Update

I wanted to update since its been a while. God is faithful and continues to bring in the money that I need. Currently I am at 10% of the monthly support that I need as well as 10% of the one time support that I need. Everyday I look forward to checking the mail to see how God is going to provide. Its exciting to watch him work.

I had the opportunity to speak with both Mike and Deena (the couple who runs Loaves and Fishes) over the phone and Ashlea (a girl from Australia who I will working with at the foster home) over facebook chat. Talking to them has made me even more eager to go. Hearing them talk about what kids I will be working with and the plans that they have for me brings joy and excitment.

Its crazy to think that if God provides the money, I will be on a plane in less then 3 months on my way!!! I can't wait to see how He will work.

1st Official Support

I got home from work tonight and checked my mailbox and guess what I found...my first official prayer support and financial support!!! I was thrilled beyond excitement. God is so good and continues to work through this journey He has me on in amazing ways. I feel so blessed to be a part of this adventure. Thank you for joining with me!